If you know me you know that I like spring and I love summer. Buffalo Winters are long and although fall is a beautiful season in this area as well. All that I can do during that beauty of fall is watch each falling leave like a ticking clock to winters that are like a black hole. If you are a native to WNY you can attest that our winters are hard and long. Every year as the summer draws to a close I get sad. I start to panic about the long winter ahead.
Our lives are filled with actual seasonal changes and the seasons that we face within ourselves. We have seasons of great joy, seasons of change, seasons of pain, seasons of loss, seasons of growth and accomplishment. I have learned that we weather the season good bad or ugly surrounded by those we love. All that takes place within those moments builds and fortifies our friendships and relationships. It knits together a bond of life experiences that you have boldly faced with loved ones by your side. The Bible talks endlessly about seasons.
As this summer comes to a close as always I gained some perspective into understanding the seasons of our lives and exactly why God put them there. Each season good, bad or ugly can allow you to pinpoint exactly who is for you and who could care less. Some of our toughest seasons allow for God to prune from our lives those who are not supposed to be there and those who truly are. With the storms of life, God will show you who is for you and who is against you in an instant. Often times it is one of those lessons you don’t want to learn but it is God doing what He does showing you that some people are there for a reason and some just for a few seasons. In truth it those that we would have never guessed that God would prune from our lives. Although we know that it is God working on our behalf, although God always replaces what he removes with better, although it is likely that those gone were toxic to start it still hurts. Tonight I wonder, how I do face each season trusting that good thing are in-store when the past few seasons of my life have been so freakin hard? This past year and a half have been filled with so much challenge and change. People I have looked to my whole life are gone just like that. 4 moves, a miscarriage, a rough pregnancy, a move I did not want to make right in the midst of it 30 minutes away from my parents where I know not a soul and can’t even order a Dominos Pizza, a sudden unexpected really premature baby and 36 long days in the NICU with 3 other children, severe postpartum, and with it all I faced much of it alone and scared.
- This was supposed to be the ” Summer Of Change”. Finally, a turning point where we accomplished so much and finally just got to enjoy our loved ones. Before we moved from our house summers meant an open door policy to the yard and pool and amazing impromptu barbecues where everyone was together. Water gun fights, perfectly planted planters, an overload of hanging baskets filled with bright color coordinated new guinea impatiens. Everything was al fresco. With the back deck and pool are set up like an extension to the house. I would watch the sun go up sitting in our outdoor dining room , I would write there as the kids played nearby in the water in the noon time, in the afternoons I would nap with JJ in the trees in my enno, at night we would light up the yard with bistro styled lights and a candle chandelier. I would even sit out there in the rain listening to it beat down on the pavilion knowing that the sun would soon shine again.
- After not being able to get our new house settled and not just make it a place to stay but our home we were finally going to do it. We were going to get rid of all the old junk we didn’t need, get organized.
- We were going to turn our amazing backyard into our very own personal campsite. We were going to do summer the way we used to but even better, it just did not happen.
- To one defense I could say it is ok you have a 3-month-old who is actually only a one-month-old – it’s is ok that you are still not settled. Then I am reminded that so and so, and so and so, and so and so’s wife only needed 12 weeks and went back to work.
- Side note. Words are a POWERFUL thing especially from the people you love and care about most choose them wisely especially when you know that the person you are talking to just needs your help in sorting it all out.
- In short, we were going to live again, like us, surrounded by those that meant so much to us. It just did not happen. The whole summer was a waste, so I thought.
This summer may have been the most valuable summer of our lives clearly showing us who desperately wants to see us fail, and delights in it. But from this year and a half of roller coaster change, I have been reminded of this and I want to remind you of it also.
- We paint pictures in our head of the way things are supposed to be. We live in a Pinterest society where you just pin it to a board and make it so but that is not the life that God has designed for you or for me.
- We know that our will can get in the way of His causing exactly what has happened here.
- Instead of fearing seasons and trying to live up to the past as Paul said ” Forgetting these things behind me”, not only do you have to forget the bad you have to let go the good knowing that your best days are ahead of you. God has already ordained your life with goodness, mercy, and purpose, His will is where you find all that you desire.
- God has given us each a vision and purpose to pursue. A calling that is uniquely yours. Regardless of what anyone thinks or says if you trust God He alone will give you a joy that nobody or no snowy season can take away.
“For the vision is yet for the appointed time; It hastens toward the goal and it will not fail Though it tarries, wait for it; For it will certainly come, it will not delay.
Habakkuk 2:3 Says it pretty clear. God has given each of us a vision for our life, a goal. a purpose. There will be seasons of waiting on the Lord. SO WAIT and rejoice. Knowing that God’s promises never fail they always come typically when it looks impossible. We serve a God of certainty in an uncertain world.
- The season will change, people will change, God never changes and He never leaves or forsakes you.
“But You remain the same,
And Your years will never end.
As much as I dread summer being over, as much as I regret not doing anything or going anywhere I know this. It was a blip. There is plenty of time ahead to live the glorious life that God has designed for me, not the life that I have pinned away. God’s master plans out champs my Pinterest board any day so I will rest assured knowing that HE WILL NOT DELAY. For all the change that has taken place, I know that God is doing what has to be done to prepare me for greater things and when you know that and trust it. No matter what anyone says or thinks God loves you more than you can ever imagine. I am the apple of His eye and that is all I need. Let that be all you need too. Nothing man could ever do can compare to what God can do and He proves that time and time again.
- I encourage you to rejoice in your season whatever kind of season it may be – even if it’s the hardest thing you have ever faced and you are all alone to what it may seem, remember you are not God is right there beside you aligning things for your good. I have seen bad times before with that I rejoice knowing all the great things ahead as I trust in Him and Him alone.
- I would be foolish to do anything but stand in faith, rejoicing knowing that the best is yet to come. I have seen God over and over again take what looks like the worst lowest moments of my life, and turn them into more than I could ever hope for, imagine or dream. Here is a great example. The October Storm,
- I wrote that post almost a year ago and reading it reminded me of how fully trusting God can bring you to the best days of your life.
This year I am going to make a change. Instead of dreading things to come I am going to enjoy every moment I am in right now knowing that my tomorrows have already been ordained with God’s plan, a plan filled with promises of peace, joy, and victory ( Jeremiah 29:11). I am deciding not to wallow in a long winter but embrace it and enjoy it, of and be sure to plan several trips to see my Mom and Dad In Love who live in Sarasota Florida. See God really does think of everything.
With that I say in closing you can’t figure things out, you are not God. You can trust Him and seek His guidance and wisdom which will lead you to sunny days – no matter what it may appear to be like in the natural. We serve a supernatural God who today showed us that he can take the moon to blot out the sun.
As always KNOW YOU ARE LOVED.