You know you have something important and special to share that needs to be heard when it takes hours to login in to your website to make a simple post.
Literally an activity I do daily just took an hour and 3 devices . I finally got in with my phone.
Today is a special day in so many regards. Today my husband turns 40 a milestone I had planned to celebrate in grand style but with Julia’s unexpected arrival that had to be put on hold. To an even bigger deal at least in my book Michael and I celebrate 10 years of marriage today .
It is hard for me to believe that 10 years has passed. In so many ways it feels like just yesterday that we met. I can recall our engagement , wedding week and wedding day as if we were still newlyweds. Yet we are far from it . 10 years in this day and age is an accomplishment 10 , happy , blessed , joyfilled loving years is rare and I’m honored to say that the past decade has been just that .
Id be lying to say that in 10 years we have had smooth sailing . Just the opposite . We have had so much come our way but that’s where the true beauty in all if this is . No matter what the storm , no matter how difficult the season , together we have stood side by side and as one of our favorite songs so perfectly describes our marriage we have danced through the minefields and sailed in the storms.
You name it we’ve dealt with it. From our early start and my suicide attempt which did kill me and leave everyone in a position where they heard those dreaded words that I was in fact gone. We survived that to overcome an addiction to prescription pain pills , from there we became parents with such great joy we had a beautiful daughter then son and from there a really dark time of post partum depression.
We literally overcame that with a change in lifestyle began juicing , I began to do Pilates and yoga , we decided to have another child and suffered two back to back miscarriages that rocked our worlds . It left me distant , angry , detached , for a good year. We worked with our Drs to have another child and in March 2014 were told it wasn’t likely. I had hit the realization that in all my wanting for another I had been missing so much with the children I did have that were miracles in themselves. Turning my total Focus to them little did anyone know that I was expecting Johnathan . It would be another 3 months before we realized he’d be joining us.
Jj came and with his arrival a change in me took place . I began to study the word more in depth I began to fully grasp the power of thanksgiving , a grateful heart and it’s power when paired with faith. There is nothing that you cannot have when you are in Gods will trusting Him fully. Jj opened a flood gate of realizing that God had so very much in store for us and we were not seeing it fully because we tried so hard in our own ability to do things.
See I say this with a true sincerity in heart and openness Michael and I are different than many couples. Having both tried relationships in our own ability ( I was married from 19-23) and Michael attempted to find a mate on his own. We both failed and when we met we both knew that only God could truly find ” the one” that was in fact designed for us. I knew it would take someone fully ordained by God to be my husband . Never again would I leave the call and purpose on my life to serve Him with that meant someone who loved the ministry as much as I did . Not an easy find . With that meant a husband who could submit to my father as their Pastor but even to a greater degree someone who could supernaturally recognize all that my family is purposed to do and in that find a place and pursue it with their all. Someone who would do that because they loved me wasn’t enough that would be certain to fail – it had to be someone who truly fully and completely loved the Lord. All of those things Michael embodies. When I look at my husband to be totally honest I see a true gift from God. Michael was not happenstance he was in fact a divine appointment. When I think back to today 10 years ago our wedding was different than most . Yes flowers , the dress , cakes , dancing , but our wedding was about standing before God and saying the vows we wrote that we knew were a promise to God and one another. Our vows yes promised that we’d love and care for each other but we stood there that day and more important promised that we together would at all costs pursue the plan and purpose that God had for our lives individually and as a couple. We promised to support each other as we each pursued the dreams and desires that God had given us both to serve Him. We vowed to pray for one another faithfully. We vowed to never stop seeking God first and together we promised that our lives now becoming one belonged to God and together we would all our days serve Him. See we knew that serving God together would provide a life in which all of our needs would be met spirit soul and body . We knew our love is human and bound to fail but Gods love a supernatural unbreakable love would be there when we fell short and that love would in fact hold us together . It most certainly has .
In this 10th year we had big plans. We had actually planned to totally renew our vows . I had planned a surprise birthday party for Michael’s 40th with the help of some of the people who love him so much at church . Then our baby girl Julia Anne came a wee bit early putting us again in a test and trial – the enemy again attempting to steal the joy from our fourth and yes FINAL miracle baby. The devil can throw what ever he wants at us at this point we just dance right through the minefields and we prefer to go dancing in the storm.
Michael if there’s one thing I hope you know after this decade of love , work , sacrifice , patience , long suffering , joy , adventure , growth and most importantly walking truly by faith I hope you know that God without doubt designed ourlives to fit together not just for us but for great purpose. As we look back and see the opportunities we have been given to serve and as we look ahead at all the open doors God has provided for us to grow the ministry and serve the lost and hurting it gives me great joy to know that my life- our life is not about just us it’s about so much more. I thank God everyday that I found the one that is truly my beloved my friend who together with we can pursue to make a difference in the lives of others every single day.
As always KNOW YOU ARE LOVED .
I would like to take the opportunity to say a special thank you to Amy Doak photography for capturing our family maternity session . There will be even more of Amy’s work to share even some posts about my maternity session … thank you amy .